Showing posts with label my birthday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my birthday. Show all posts

watch me while I congratulate myself



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post apocalyptic backyard much?

post Christmas party ubiquitous red cup? check
post summer wishful thinking tiki-torch? check.
giant hole dug by spaztatistical puppy dog? check.


So it's freezing. Not so much freezing in that way that things are frozen, or there is ice involved, or even so much as to say that the temperature has reached the freezing point. It is freezing in the way that I spent 90% of my life in Southern California and haven't yet developed the emotional resources needed to carry me cheerfully through a dismal Texas winter. It's not a powdery, sparkly fluff kind of winter here. It can only be described as devoid (on the bad days). Devoid of light, sky, and leaves. It's not my cup of tea. But I am trying to power through and keep warm with robust doses of florals, plaids, boots, and fancy gloves as you can see. Nothing cheers me up like a little pattern mixing, some big-ass jewelry, and a hands-free hand-bag (er, backpack.)

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DKNY wool blazer- thrifted, $1.25
Floral mid-length skirt- thrifted, > $5.00
Turtleneck- F21, yeeeaaars ago
Rings- F21 last week y'all! cheap?
Fingerless gloves- Christmas gift ♥ my Mama
Hairdid- Dawn at Joie de Vie
booty like whoah- model's own ;)

I think we can officially call it 2011. I may be a few days behind here but I like a sure thing. I needed to make sure that I had time to get my head around everything that went down in 2010 before I committed (new house! new dog! baby starts kindergarten! bizniz partnership! ohmy!). More importantly I needed to deal with the head-spinningly fantastic entree of my 29th year! Truth be told I really never feel the New Year until January 10th because that is when MY new era begins... January 10th was my birthday, in case you didn't pick up on that in the previous sentences.

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This birthday was not taking any prisoners. In the brief downtime between Christmas and my day of birth I was steamrolled by the implications of my 20's, or "the 20's that were" as I am calling them now. I was noticing more eye-wrinkles, hearing the word ma'am like a gut-punch, and stressing over my nightly need to retire before 11PM (like... hours before.) The willies of another year passing quickly subsided in the face of the best gotdamn birthday I can remember. Declaring the whole weekend as titled "29 problems but a bitch ain't one" caused this photo to happen-

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courtesy of Tealy
. well played.

In all honesty I can say I don't remember feeling as special or as valued as I did this year when my friends and husband got together to put together a fantastic birthday celebration for me. Dinner at The Good Knight (oh not enough seats to accommadate all my loving amigos?? #tooflatteringformyowngood #egofantastico) ...


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to my left...

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to my right...

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Oh, where I passed the camera around the table and scored these gems...


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Har! Har!

Dinner was followed by rump-shaking all about town, where I managed to score these whopping DOS photos before my camera battery died...


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get it gurls

and the night was topped off (nee! CROWNED) by the presentation of a Best Buy gift card that a whole gaggle of my friends got together on so I could go get a new SCHMANCY camera I want so hard. In all honesty they were trying to shut me up because I won't stop whining about my crappy point and shoot but who says a good gift can't be beneficial to SEVERAL?! Not I. The night ended with a torrential downpour that soaked through my leather jacket and saw several of us wandering the streets like soggy stray dogs... in Jeffrey Campbell platforms. By the time we got a taxi (came equipped with the worlds lousiest, rudest taxi-driver) and then walked (er, stumbled?) several blocks to our car (did I mention the lousy cab driver?) I was a ready to fall into my bed and sleep tight in my own self-made puddle. I spent the following day recovering by watching Party Down on Netflix and whining about my sore dancing legs while my man listened and sympathized attentively. Happy.as.a.clam. :)


Leaping into my 29th year, the last of my twenties obviously, made me think a lot about what I have to show for it. It's the standard reaction and I didn't dive in too hard because it was easy. I came through the first half of my twenties like a bruiser, knocking down your average moving to a strange city alone, token damaging relationship with a guy who can only be explained as guaranteed to break my parents heart, accidental pregnancy turned unprepared mommyhood, long-distance whirlwind romance turned matrimony, and the total rejection of, how do you say, "employment" for the uphill battle of my own passion-following small business. Despite the perhaps trainwreck-esque expectations I inspired in people, I clawed my way through the last half to this very day, where I find myself with a beautiful daughter, a wonderful husband, a home I love in a city that has shown it loves me, and a circle of friends that are INSPRING most importantly and never less than unconditionally supportive*.

*See this is the part that relates to the title of this post. I am indulging in a big ol wank fest of self-congratulations. It's almost as horrific to watch as a bunch of "country-rock" dudes with their arms around each other on stage, swaying and singing Wild Horses (personal anecdote, pay no mind.) It's way better than my innate tendency to downtalk and negate my own achievements internally, trust me. Self-aggrandizing > self-pity any day in my humble opinion... haha, see what happened there? With the humble but I said I was self-aggrand- oh, nevermind.

The point is, I started this year with a good bit of contentment and a pinch of pride, no doubt. I have big plans for 2011 because I want to barrel into 30, into next year, with more than a pinch yeah?
xo

When it rains it pours...


So I guess it wouldn't be out of place to tell you that my week is not going well. Not only is my lovely, beloved Canon Rebel XTI out of commission, with something I can only imagine as a mental disorder, but last night the hard drive on my ibook FAILED. Giant, giant fail written all over my life, like a bad cat macro. Le sigh. So today I wore a (really adorable, not that I can prove it) all black ensemble to the Apple store...like a widow to a wake I went! It is all gone. It is all, all, all gone, gone, gone. I back up every once in awhile with my external hard drive but to be honest I hadn't done so in a while...I know that I should have been more vigilant.  Thousands of songs, photos, and documents. Folders full of inspirational photographs that I have collected from the internet, all my saved sites, blogs, shops, and guilty pleasures are all gone. I am not sure where to start. After returning from the funeral of my little, white, sleek BFF I sat I outside for a long time letting the cold add to my suffering and self-pity. 

feel my sorrow. and my wonky eyes.
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Off topic, while I was pining for my lost computer compiled identity, I discovered that this is what I would look like if my features were symmetrical.
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learn something new everyday, eh?

On the positive side, I am basically starting from scratch and it feels a little good. I mean, my computer hard drive was replaced along with the top thing-a-ma-jig so it is clean and sparkly. It feels somehow appropriate that I have to start over completely as the new year comes in...I get to reorganize, re-prioritize, and remember the things I really love again. If this sounds a little heavy for some lost information on a laptop, remember that I work online, live thousands of miles from my closest good friend, take photos every single day for work or blogging...I live a lot of life on the computer, and I don't have a problem with that. My next steps are, in no particular order;

  • Music. Begin the re-downloading process. I like the idea of beginning with my top ten favorites and completing their catalogs before moving on. I have a bad habit of acquiring music on a whim then neglecting to have the complete works of bands and artists I truly love. I believe I will begin with the following artists; Spiritualized, Whiskeytown/Ryan Adams, Neutral Milk Hotel, Cat Power, Jason Molina (also as Songs:Ohia and Magnolia Electric Co.), The Kinks, Dolly Parton, Joy Division, Otis Redding, The Mountain Goats, Simon and Garfunkel, Wilco, Gram Parsons, Okkervil River, Lynyrd Skynryd, White Zombie...did I say ten? This is going to be hard.
  • Compile new and more concise collection of bookmarked blogs. No more kinda sorta sometimes fashion I like. I will only be including those I absolutely am inspired by. As many as I can remember. This is where you come in! What are your favorite fashion/street style/lifestyle blogs? Jog my memory.
  • Begin new and fresh collections of inspiration photos. Luckily I have a lot of editorials and images already uploaded to flickr. This event should also serve as just the kick in the pants I need to finally cut up all the magazines I have been saving. I have always been very precious about magazines, saving them, protecting them, displaying them...Recently, after a pile of Vogue's slid off a night stand and came close to killing my kid, I realized I am being silly. I think I honestly believe I may save them for my daughter to look at when she is my age (and obsessed with vintage, obviously). The more I think about it, the more I think she will enjoy looking at a scrapbook I made when I was young...as opposed to 400 advertisements for Ralph Lauren Collection! I am looking forward to spending some cold days sifting through pages and chop! chop! chopping! them up for a little look book of my own. It sounds therapeutic.
If you feel the need to cheer me up but don't know how, you'll be happy to know that before my computer imploded I was a busy bee, working on a birthday wish list. My 27th birthday is January 10th! You may be wondering why I am skipping the whole Christmas list thing and that is because it is considered uncouth in my family to actually ask for things you want. It ruins everything and sucks the spirit of Christmas out, just ask my mom. So, while everyone else is doing that...I am patiently waiting the arrival of my late twenties. An abbreviated list of my desires includes,

"non" necklace, headband, and mask from Emmanuelle Esther
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(this one has been all over the place! So adorable!)

Chain ring, eyelash necklace, talon ring, and "faithful pantsuit" from Bona Drag
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Sam Edelman ankle strapped booties
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Plaid Hi-neck poncho from Nasty Gal Vintage

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J Fit Digital Fitness Hula Hoop. How fun I need one!
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Now I KNOW I KNOW what you're thinking. "But Sarah, these things are (for the most part) neither Vintage nor Secondhand!" To that I say yes, you're right. But I can only control myself and what I buy. I cannot control what YOU buy for ME. It is that simple. All the gifts that I give away this year will be vintage or secondhand.

Hopefully I will have photos and better news to report next time... But right now I will leave you with some shots from the greatest teenage love story ever told, better known as my weekly date with Randy (hearts! stars! fireworks!) in Valley Girl!

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aaahhhh! a truer love would be hard to find...